From Daily Terror to Triumph: My Journey Through OCD

Hey everyone, I’m Mourice, the creator of ObsessLess. I’m here because I’ve lived through the terror of OCD, and I know what it’s like to feel trapped by your own mind. My OCD journey began after years of crippling anxiety, spiralling into a severe episode of Harm-OCD.

It felt like I was losing my grip on reality. The fear was so intense, I couldn't put it into words. My compulsions were mostly mental (intrusive thoughts), spending hours Googling for reassurance, avoiding anything that looked like a weapon, constantly on edge.

When I was finally diagnosed, the relief was brief. I was told I had OCD, but then came another blow—an 8-month wait to see a therapist that would be covered by my insurance. I was devastated. How could I survive that long with this constant terror?

Those 8 months were some of the darkest times of my life. Every day was a battle against obsessive thoughts that only grew louder.

During that time, I remember my father saying that with the right tools, any obstacle can be overcome. So, through the terror I decided to build my own survival kit, doing whatever I could to hold on until I could start ERP and CBT therapy.

I read everything I could find on OCD, tried meditation, optimised my health, and learned why my mind was working this way. It didn’t fix everything, but it kept me afloat, day by day.

When therapy finally came, I got access to ERP and CBT training. It helped me embrace the uncertainty behind my fears—the core of ERP therapy—and slowly, the terror began to loosen its grip. The thoughts became quieter, and I could finally breathe again.

Looking back, I’m not sure I would have stood here without that toolkit and the understanding of what I was facing. Now, I’m determined to help others who are in that same terrifying place, waiting for help that feels so far away. Therapy alone isn’t always enough to tackle the relentless panic and anxiety.

I’ve learned to manage my OCD to almost nothing, and I want the same for you. That’s why I created ObsessLess—to offer the tools I wish I had when I was in that dark place, waiting for treatment, and trying to survive between therapy sessions.

I hope this brings some relief, especially to those of you stuck on a waitlist or far from the help you need. You’re not alone, and there is a way through.